He alone is Secure

Welcome to life: unmasked, a blog link-up encouraging us to get real,take off our masks, and show how we are finding God (or how God is finding us) in our mess.

I don't have a job. I quit it.
Right before I left for Ethiopia 6ish weeks ago
No back up plan
No second job
Nothing

I know it's what God wanted

I prayed about it a lot before I made the decision

...and struggled

It didn't make sense. Nobody would understand.

How would I survive?

but in the end

I decided that upholding my character is more important than a paycheck

so I did what I had wanted to do for weeks 

I walked out

In the last 6 weeks, I've been looking for a job and waiting on the Lord

And I've walked in a greater measure of peace than I have in a very long time

...perhaps ever

I've learned what it is that He is my security.

That He is my husband and He will provide

and He has...

down to the last penny

And right now, I have only $93 in my bank account

which isn't enough to pay my phone bill

and electric bill

and medical bills

and gas...

But I've learned what it is to trust Him

money is not my security

money is not my happiness

money is not my peace

and until it was gone, I could have never experienced that in truth

I have an interview on Tuesday and am believing God t o bless it

and give me favor

and if I don't get it, I know that He will sustain me

He has been and will continue to

because my God is the same yesterday. 

Today.

Forever